I know, and I'm sorry. I really can't take any pictures because the daylight is almostgone when I get to home from the school.I need to tell you guys something and I really hope that my friends etc. will read this:It's about something my mom asked me today. She asked that why do I want to weardark clothes, put on dark lipstick and eye makeup and color my hair with ''colors that don't belongto your hair'', like blue or lavender.She said that she'll not let me become a ''bad girl''. I have to say that I laughed so hard!So just telling this to all of you (especially to my dear friends).I'm not a ,so called, bad girl... Really... (lmaoing here).I just like to wear a bit darker stuff because of winter. It has always been like that!I really like my eyeliner makeup! It's cute and hides the marks of tiredness.And why do I want to color my hair with blue or lavender? Hm, let's see...I rly don't know, I guess I just love those awesome colors! People say that hair color is an attitude.For me it's just the color you like. Nothing more.I remember those times, when I was afraid to be who I really wanted to be.I'm not anymore. The only thing that I'm afraid of is that people won't accept me.This city where I live... In here difference is something people don't really like.And I'm afraid that my friends will be ashamed of my looks, clothing, hair, EVERYTHING.I don't want to be alone. That would be the only reason why I'd look like everyone else.But don't get me wrong, I know all of you wouldn't leave me alone! Sorry if this sounds a bit mean.So basically the reason I'm telling this to you is my mom. She's concerned that I'm turninginto a goth etc. NO. HAH, defiantly NOT. I haven't ever seen skulls, crosses or brighthair been the main reasons for turning into a (i don't even want to write them).I really loved her face when I told her that I bought these shoes.I don't know why but I love them! They feel like a part of me...I dunno, what the hell have I just written, but I hope you people understand, thatI'm the same person I've always been, and I won't change.